Ibinahagi ni Kyla Alvarez ang "overwhelming sadness" na kaniyang nararamdaman at naiisip ang mga sanggol na hindi niya naisilang matapos siyang makunan ng tatlong beses.
Sa kaniyang Instagram, nagbahagi si Kyla ng larawan niya sa beach at inilahad ang kaniyang nadaramang lungkot sa gitna ng katahimikan.
"There’s something about the sound of the waves that is so calming. It’s one of the most beautiful calls of nature that I love to hear," saad ni Kyla sa caption.
Anang OPM singer, kailangan niya rin muna ng "feel-good vibe" at makapagpahinga.
"We planned to go to Palawan this month. But ECQ happened. Oh well," ani Kyla, at dinagdag na siya ay "feeling really, really down the past few days."
"I have this overwhelming feeling of sadness, of wanting to be left alone. And my husband would always wonder why I was acting that way," pagpapatuloy niya.
"I can’t explain it. And he’s so nice to me still and so patient, I feel so bad," sabi ni Kyla.
Ayon kay Kyla, napapanaginipan niya si Millie, ngunit nalulungkot siyang hindi niya nakita ang mukha nito.
Si Millie ang isa sa mga ipinagbuntis ni Kyla na hindi natuloy matapos siyang makunan.
"Sometimes i’d wake up.. i’d have dreams about me carrying a baby. The last dream i had, i was walking Millie to school. I cried because i didn’t see her face. I wish i saw her face.. i guess i’ll forever wonder about how my babies would look like if they were born... I keep having those dreams. And losing them. It feels so traumatic."
Kung kaya naman gusto niyang makapagpahinga muna.
"I just want an escape from reality.. even if it’s just for little while," sabi ni Kyla.
Isinilang ni Kyla ang unang anak nila ng asawang si Rich Alvarez na si Toby noong 2013. Pero noong 2018, dalawang beses siyang nakunan.
Muling nakunan si Kyla nitong Hulyo.-- FRJ, GMA News
