Ashley Ortega to her mom: 'I know I caused you so much pain when I left'

Ashley Ortega hopes that her mom can still forgive her despite their estrangement.

On Wednesday's episode of "Pinoy Big Brother: Celebrity Collab Edition," the Sparkle actress got the opportunity to "talk" to her mom during a task moderated by host and house guest Gabbi Garcia.

The housemates faced a photo of their loved ones in a dinner setting with a full-course meal. Each course represents one question prepared by Kuya.

In the first question, Ashley was asked: "Tingin mo ba nagkamali ka nung umalis ka sa bahay?"

"Honestly, Ma, I think 'yung mali sa ginawa ko is I left you guys without saying anything. I thought about it for years even though OK tayo, even though OK 'yung relationship natin, I would ask myself, (if) I would leave the house, and my answer would always be yes. Hindi na ako nakapagpaalam," she said.

To the second question, "Sa palagay mo ba nami-miss kita?" Ashley answered that she doesn't know.

"What I feel like is, hindi mo pa rin tanggap lahat nung nangyari so I don't know. I don't know if you miss me or not and I don't want to expect that you miss me. Sana, from time to time you would think that I'm OK. I'm sure naman ang napulot ko sa inyo ay I can handle things on my own, that I've been independent. I do miss you. I miss Lola so much."

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When asked if "Gaano kalaking sakit ang naidulot ko sa 'yo," Ashley could not contain her emotions and cried.

"Sobrang sakit, Ma. To the point na I left because hindi ko na kaya talaga. I know I caused you so much pain when I left because alam ko ring binuhos mo rin 'yung mundo mo sa akin," Ashley replied.

"I appreciate you for that. I just wanted to leave because ayoko 'yung habang buhay may hatred ako sa Mom ko. Ayokong lumaki nang lumaki 'yung hatred ko sa 'yo, Ma. That's why I just chose to leave to distance myself. To give space for myself and for you also. So that you can focus on yourself first," she added.

"I am grateful na binigay mo sa akin lahat ng oras mo. You're the reason why I'm a figure skater. You're the reason why I'm a good actress. You've been there."

She also felt that the main problem of their relationship is not communicating their emotions properly and they were just filled with anger.

The fourth question goes: "Sa kabila ng lahat ng away at hindi pagkakaintindihan natin, may bagay ba akong nagawa na ipinagpapasalamat mo?"

"I think you know naman na I'm grateful for a lot of things. I'm thankful for you're just beside me all the time, binabantayan mo ako. Thank you rin sa lahat ng mga emotions na pinaramdam mo sa akin, the good and the bad because if it weren't for that wala akong malalim na hugot sa buhay," the Kapuso star replied.

And the final question: "Sa tingin mo ba may pag-asa pang magkaroon ng pagpapatawad sa pagitan nating dalawa?"

"Of course, Ma. I'm just waiting for you. If you're not ready. Go, take your time kasi ako OK na ako," Ashley said.

When Gabbi asked if she tried asking for forgiveness, Ashley said: "I texted her. If I had the chance to be OK with her again. Of course, I want to visit Lola."

Ending her statement, Ashley said: "I know it's your birthday in a few days right now. Happy birthday. I hope all your wishes will come true. Whatever happened in the past, I hope we can just forget about it and move on and find peace in our hearts.

"I always pray that my mom will heal and I hope she will forgive me."

Kuya also advised Ashley: "Huwag kang panghinaan ng loob. Ang malalalim na sugat, magagamot ito ng pagmamahal. Darating ang araw na magkakaayos din kayo."

"Pinoy Big Brother: Celebrity Collab Edition" airs new episodes on GMA Network at 10 p.m. on weekdays and 6:15 p.m. on weekends. —MGP, GMA Integrated News