Max Eigenmann opens up about death of her dad Mark Gil: 'It felt like a part of me died'

What a conversation Max Eigenmann had with Nelson Canlas on his podcast "Updated."

In it, they spoke about a myriad of things — about what's it like to be in a showbiz family, how she initially didn't want to be an actor but now wants to do more teleseryes in her 30s, about losing her Tita Cherie Gil and her dad Mark Gil and the grief that came with it.

"The thing about grief is that, it doesn't go away talaga completely. It really doesn't. You just kinda learn how to live with it," she began.

The Cinemalaya Best Actress for 2022 admitted getting sad every time September 1, the date of her father's passing, rolls by. "I always take a moment and you know, I get really, really sad," she said.

Her father Mark Gil died of liver cancer in 2014 at the age of 52.

In the podcast, Max recalled having to prepare an announcement about her father having to stop working but needing to revise it because he suddenly died.

"Mayroon kaming sinulat na parang announcement kasi nga bigla na lang siyang nag-stop mag-accept ng work, kasi nga nag-deteriorate yung health niya," Max shared.

"We were gonna make a formal announcement to the industry that my dad was gonna stop working muna because he had a condition, which was cancer. Bago pa namin ma-announce, he passed away. So we had to edit it and then announced his death instead."

Every September 1, Max says "I end up reliving the loss all over again." 

"Pero yun nga, that's the thing about grief eh. It's not knowing where to put the love you have for this person. Because they're gone. So it doesn't really go away, you just learn how to live with it."

According to Max, she couldn't put a name to the emotion she felt when her father passed away. "I mean, I knew he was sick and stuff but nothing can prepare you talaga when it happens. Nothing can prepare you for that at all."

"When I lost my dad, it felt like a part of me died," Max continued. "I've never felt that kind of thing in my life."

The experience, however, has now helped her deal with her Tita Cherie's passing. "I think I have a better grasp on this feeling because I experienced it with my father," she said.

Listen to "Updated with Nelson Canlas" on Spotify. — LA, GMA News